My Little Secret
Okay y’all, let’s rewind a few years to when I boldly spilled my tea about how I was healed from herpes. Yes, you heard that right…I chose to share my testimony with the world because of the faith and love I developed from my journey. I compiled my experiences over 4 years and crafted a written record of how good God has been to me. I bared my soul and waited for the warm embrace, but instead, I was ambushed by the “dark side”. A couple of weeks after releasing my story to the wild, I got hit with a notification that Baller Alert reposted it…and suddenly my DMs were overflowing with kindness and curiosity, while the comment section turned into a battlefield of demons. 😩
Now, I knew the laughs would come—I mean, I was making jokes too, but let me tell you…I definitely underestimated the audacity of the keyboard warriors. From being labeled a liar, a scammer, to the ultimate shade of being a deadbeat mom, I had to swallow my pride and remember that the brighter you shine, the bigger the shadows you cast. Now once the adrenaline faded, and I no longer wanted to tear those trolls in half, I was able to see the moment for what it was and extract the wisdom.
But first off, to all those “experts” that think they know everything, “SinCe You GoT yOuR dEgReE”…Sometimes the answers can only be found within, not in some laboratory or textbook. I had “doctors” telling me not to share my testimony because they couldn’t wrap their closed minds around my alternative solution. “There’s no cure, this is dangerous, you should take this down, blah blah blah”. The problem I have with modern science is they need physical proof to accept things as fact, but the Divine MUST be experienced to fully understand. If science and spirituality chose to hold hands, we could all frolic together in a field of truth!
“The more I study science, the more I believe in God.”
Albert Einstein
Now to the other extreme, I received an overwhelming amount of love, in my DMs. But the warmth of appreciation I was seeking, turned into a blinding spotlight that was slowly melting away my sanity. I was flooded with inquiries for the “magic formula”, from yearning souls looking for a way out of their suffering…and as much as I wanted to be the one to save them, the reality check is: I don’t have the answers for anyone. My journey of Self-discovery was personal and the lessons I endured were tailored just for me. Everyone’s got their own pain to sift through, yes outside help like therapy or a good friend is great, but ultimately, it’s you and God who will navigate that path.
But, Do y’all wanna know the biggest revelation I got from all this? What, friend?
Stop giving AF about other people’s perception of you — good or bad. I’m here to please God, not the people in the back! The freedom to show up as Myself, without needing validation from others is worth any embarrassment or shame that came with telling people how I was healed from Herpes.
I hope that by sharing my little secret, you find comfort in knowing there’s a powerful force inside you and surrounding you that can heal all things. Literally, nothing is impossible when you tap into it!
Love,
Your Heauxlistic Homegirl
Lain Doe
P.S. If you haven’t read my original story or just want to relive the moment, check it out below:
